October, where do I start?!!
Like all the other months of the year, it seemed to whizz by in a blink of an eye, probably doesn’t help that from around the 10th October I’ve been lecturing full time at the Uni as well as continuing to run Firecracker, 60 hour weeks are the norm at the moment, this is only temporary until the end of the academic semester in February 2022 but has taken a bit of getting used to, as much as I like the financial security that being full time gives me, my heart is still very much with Firecracker & being my own boss. I give my lecturing role everything I’ve got, however, I am looking forward to having more time next year to dedicate to Firecracker and other plans I have brewing in my mind.
Over the past few months, I have been in discussions with an organisation about an opportunity that I have been dreaming about for years, in fact ever since I started Firecracker, I think I might have mentioned something about this in my post about August 2022. Recently the discussions had moved on a bit and an offer was on the table, seeing this writing in black and white was a moment of realisation for me!
I was totally flattered by the opportunity that was being presented, over the past 11 years I’ve worked tirelessly to build my business, brand and professional reputation. I’ve invested a fair bit of money but also a huge amount of blood, sweat and tears. I give my whole self in everything I do, with no half-measures for me and finally, someone wanted a piece of this too. My ego was totally in its element, however, when I saw the value the organisation had put on this opportunity my heart sank, now I know I’ve spoken about self-love before & how I struggle with seeing the success I’ve had over the years and my true value in what I do as a profession but even I recognised that what I’ve built up over the years was worth more than they had put on it, some negotiation followed which gave me more confidence about going ahead with the opportunity.
But then, I had a real niggle in my belly about it, something just didn’t feel right! My head was kind of saying yes, yes, yes but my gut was screaming no, no no. This internal turmoil went on for a week or so and then I decided to follow my gut and turn the opportunity down.
I might live to regret this decision but right now I do feel it was the right thing to do, I’ve always been a believer in following my gut, as in the past it has guided me well so I have no reason not to trust it – also from my nutrition knowledge I know that your gut is your second brain & always tell people to listen to it so I’m just practising what I preach.
Once I made this decision, some weight had been lifted off my shoulders and then my mind was well what next… you’ll have to wait until next year to hear my what next as I’m just not quite yet ready to share it publically but it is very exciting and kind of sits with what my word of the year has been for 2022 – “Authenticity”, and as this year draws to a close my mind does start thinking about next years word (this is yet to be decided, but hope it might come to me in the coming weeks).
Anyway, back to October’s review. With working long hours, exercise has been on the back burner, I have been a few times but I’ve just lost my mojo for it yet again, this has a little something to do with a knee injury that doesn’t seem to be getting better despite rest and physio and by the end of the month I’d finally managed to get a referral to a specialist to help sort it out, my first appointment was in November so will let you know how I got on with this next month. This has also hampered my marathon training, which I should have started at the beginning of October and I have a sinking feeling that I won’t be able to take part if my knee doesn’t show any improvement.
The last two months of the year… bring them on!!
Lincolnshiregirl 