The decisions I made late last year and early this year came to fruition in March when I had a heavy workload which meant most other activities went out the window.
I worked for over 3 weeks straight without a day when I didn’t do some kind of work be this uni work (marking assignments) or Firecracker work. I know this is a really unhealthy balance of work and life but as I’ve said in previous blog posts sometimes I make decisions based on fear and then have to suffer the consequences and when I commit to doing anything, I give my everything to it.
The days blended into each other and I consistently did 14/15 hour days too, so by the time Easter came, I was completely and utterly empty and drained (Unsurprisingly).
The Easter weekend was emotional and I felt extremely lonely, I ended up doing two things on my own which just magnified these feelings as I felt very self-conscious that I was on my own when other people at the event were with their partner or other people. It highlighted that it’s nice to share experiences with others and left me thinking about how I do this in the future. I don’t want to stop doing things because I don’t have anyone to do it with but I think I’ll think carefully before I book stuff.
In my recent blogs, you’ll notice a complete absence of me talking about being active as this also took a backseat due to work but also, I’m still struggling with my knee and general fatigue. I’ve been back to the doctors about this and currently, they aren’t able to give me any answers, in fact, more things were questioned.
As the month drew to a close, I realised that I needed to make some big changes in my life if I was going to move forward, I know I probably sound like a broken record here but I guess the universe keeps showing you the lessons your need to learn until you actually learn them! The main one is about committing stuff to myself and sticking to it, in other words, I MATTER and I need to keep this front and central to everything I do. Next month I’ll explain what I decided and what I’m doing about it.
Until next time, take care and be kind to yourself and all around you xx
Lincolnshiregirl 