December – Adjusting, reflecting and looking forward

Firstly, just wanted to say thank you to all the people who contacted me after last month’s post was published to offer me support, share their own stories and much more.

The job hunt begins which is quite a scary prospects for many reasons, I’ve not applied for a job for over 13 years so writing cover letters and filling out application forms are all a bit alien to me, working out what kind of job I want has also proven quite hard, I know what I love to do and the skills I have so it’s working out how I can make these fit with advertised roles.

One of the hardest things I’ve found is realising that I’ve actually achieved quite a lot of good things in the past few years and have a plethora of skills and expertise. I’ve got so used to see my failings that I’ve become blind to my successes! This has lead to quite a fair bit of reflections and reviewing the last few years in a very objective way to tease out skills and experience I can apply to job descriptions and criteria.

Even now I know that looking for full-time employment is the best thing for me right now I’ve still got a little bit of “what if’s” that some of the opportunities that the business created come to fruition and then I’m not able to fulfil these, over the last month a few things have come up that have made me questions my decision and with the help of friends seen that I can’t be distracted from the task at hand.

Over the last few months, I’ve been doing some consultancy work for a food business which has made me realised that working for someone else and within a team is really quite nice, being part of something with a collective goal is exciting so now I’m visualising being part of a team who can achieve some amazing team. At the end of the year, this company offered me a part-time role which I’ve now accepted, I’ve been totally upfront with them about my situation and they understand the value the contribution I can bring to their business in the short term.

In the past, I’ve used some goal setting workbooks to help me achieve things throughout a year and help me to remain focused on goals and aspirations, last year (2019) I didn’t use them but as I see 2020 as being slightly different I decided to go back to them. In this series, you can buy a life and business book and I resisted buying the business one even if it was through teary eyes knowing I am doing the right thing.

These books have served me well so over the years, over the festive period I set aside time to start filling it out, it is divided into many different sections such as career, finances, community, self, family, environment.

This past year has taught me so many things about myself and others and although I’ve finished it in a bit of a sucky place of uncertainty I’m glad I made it through with many happy memories and some fantastic friendships.

Here’s to whatever 2020 has install for us.

Published by lincolnshiregirl

I'm 40 something gal living in the beautiful county of Lincolnshire, England. I run my own business which is a rollercoaster of good times and bad times but it is what makes life interesting. I'm a self-confessed foodie, which some people might think is bordering an obsession, but a good obsession I would say. I am a fully qualified food technologist, nutritionist and personal trainer and use my skills and knowledge to keep striving to better myself in all areas of my life. Despite being dyslexic I love reading both fiction and non-fiction books and usually have four or five on the go at any one time. I enjoy keeping myself fit and healthy by regular visits to the gym as well as enjoying open water swimming and sometimes I'm brave enough to swim without a wetsuit. This blog is all about my life and adventures.

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