December 2020 – Feeling at home

Well, that’s 2020 done and dusted, good riddance some might say, and there is no denying that this might be a year that we may wish to forget but will actually find quite hard to erase from our memories.

For me, the end of the year signifies a time for reflection and time off for renewal and this year has been no different. I make time to review the highs and lows of the year and life lessons I will take forward in the days, weeks and months to come.

One thing I do every year is have a “word of the year” that reflects how I want to live my life for 2020 the word was “THRIVE” and despite everything that was thrown at us this year I actually feel like I have thrived in many ways.

I feel a little guilty saying this knowing so many people have/are struggling with simply living right now and don’t get me wrong I have many minor and major wobbles this year, however, when I look at the year and my life overall, some things seemed to have fallen into place which have been pipedreams for a while.

Over the last few years, I’ve turned into a little home bird and love nothing more than being surrounded by my own four walls & only my cat and thoughts for physical company. This wasn’t always the case and having had years of therapy to work on the darker side of my brain and a believer in personal development I feel that all the pain I’ve gone through to deal with deep-rooted issues, limiting beliefs & historical events have helped me navigate this year better than I have any other year. I don’t think I’m anywhere near where I want to be with this work as know it’s a life long project but the techniques & strategies I’ve amassed over the years have come into their own this year.

I enjoy being at home and luckily I am able to separate work and life easily as I have a dedicated office for working and the rest of the house is for living!! The days I sit on the sofa with my laptop and work are few and far between, today though is one of those days!! Mainly because it’s a bit of a bleak & cold day and wanted to light my open fire to give my living room that warm cosy feel, I’ve got some tunes on in the background and Sophiecat by my side, what more could I ask for?!?

Only in this last month have I felt happy with how my life is progressing, often I’ve been guilty of pushing, when I have an idea in my head I tend to go full throttle on the go pedal and try to make it happen before it’s ready to happen and often feel disheartened when things don’t work out as I would like, this year, however, things seem to happen in their own good time and it’s been perfect timing for me too!! This has taught me a lesson in trust & acceptance.

I’ve realised what makes my heart sing and that I’m actually respected for it too which makes me beam from ear to ear as more than ever I feel at home with who I am. This is a very special feeling which has alluded me most of my life as if I’m honest I’ve always felt like I was never good enough!

I’m not settling for anything less than world domination but know that I’ll get there in my own sweet time and not to get distracted by others who might seem to further ahead than I am and to have an unwavering belief that I can achieve anything I want to I just need to be brave enough to believe it.

I’m excited about what 2021 might bring, I have some big ideas and dreams which I WILL MAKE HAPPEN.

Until next time, stay well and safe. R xx

Published by lincolnshiregirl

I'm 40 something gal living in the beautiful county of Lincolnshire, England. I run my own business which is a rollercoaster of good times and bad times but it is what makes life interesting. I'm a self-confessed foodie, which some people might think is bordering an obsession, but a good obsession I would say. I am a fully qualified food technologist, nutritionist and personal trainer and use my skills and knowledge to keep striving to better myself in all areas of my life. Despite being dyslexic I love reading both fiction and non-fiction books and usually have four or five on the go at any one time. I enjoy keeping myself fit and healthy by regular visits to the gym as well as enjoying open water swimming and sometimes I'm brave enough to swim without a wetsuit. This blog is all about my life and adventures.

One thought on “December 2020 – Feeling at home

  1. Love this post. It has seemed like a kind of reset for many, hasn’t it – the end of the year. I’m just hoping the Park runs will be back up and running perhaps by summer – to help guilt me into running on a Sunday 🙂

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