July 2021 – Running on Empty

July is a bit of a strange month for me, it’s my birthday month which I often find challenging.

I feel like I’m running on empty, completely devoid of energy, exhausted and lost all my mojo for life, not in a depressed way so to speak but just no motivation to do things I usually don’t even think about doing like exercise!

I have been feeling pretty tired over the last few months even years if I’m honest but this month it kind of hit me like a tonne of bricks.

My challenge 250 has gone out of the window, I managed to maintain it for 68 days and then things started to fall apart, I am still meditating which I plan on continuing for as long as possible!! Yes, I’m a bit gutted that I wasn’t able to maintain this challenge but that’s life and I won’t be too unkind to myself.

I don’t know about you but around my birthday I often take some time for reflection as another year older! And as I hit the 44 mark, I decided that enough is enough, enough of being tired all the time, living a life of hustling and just about getting by, not really living, just surviving and I appreciate that the last 18 months have been like no other but my struggles have been going on for years so the pandemic has kind of compounded the issue and I’ve kind of got stuck into a negative mindset…

When I look at my life and my skills there is no real reason why I should be in this position but I am so my plan is to use my knowledge to transform my life in the next 12 months so by the time I hit 45 my life/body/health/house/garden will look totally different. No stone will be left unturned in addressing the challenges I have and I am determined to overcome them.

To keep myself accountable I will be capturing this transformation with a daily blog/vlog (Feel free to subscribe if you want!) – and a way to capture the transformation for prosperity. I know that at times this will be painful both physically and mentally but I truly believe that this pain will be worth it in the end. I want to finally banish the demons in my head, smash the imaginary walls I put up that stop me doing things I want to do and live my true self – whoever that is because at this point in time I’m not actually sure who I am and what makes my heart sing.

The first things I am going to do is rest, for the first time in nearly a decade I now get paid holiday so will be having some time off work/business in August to plan the next 365 days. While I’m resting I will review my goals, review my current situation and put together a plan of action!

How are things to you? Have you had a chance to reflect on your life and think about changes you’d like to make?

Until next time, stay safe and healthy Rachel xx

Published by lincolnshiregirl

I'm 40 something gal living in the beautiful county of Lincolnshire, England. I run my own business which is a rollercoaster of good times and bad times but it is what makes life interesting. I'm a self-confessed foodie, which some people might think is bordering an obsession, but a good obsession I would say. I am a fully qualified food technologist, nutritionist and personal trainer and use my skills and knowledge to keep striving to better myself in all areas of my life. Despite being dyslexic I love reading both fiction and non-fiction books and usually have four or five on the go at any one time. I enjoy keeping myself fit and healthy by regular visits to the gym as well as enjoying open water swimming and sometimes I'm brave enough to swim without a wetsuit. This blog is all about my life and adventures.

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