December this year has been a time I attempt to catch my breath so to speak, for the last decade I haven’t really taken much time off at Christmas as I felt that if I wasn’t working I wasn’t earning money and that freaked the hell out of me.
For most of the month, I was wishing away the days, this is not something I usually do as I want to make the most of every day and I love what I do at the uni as well as the business but I had started to feel really tired as the year drew to an end so I was counting down the days to when I could just mooch around the house and have no plans!
This year is slightly, well if I’m honest massively different. Having some part-time work at the uni gives me some financial security so feel more relaxed to take time away from work but also after many years of therapy and working on myself in terms of limiting beliefs, lack of self-belief and confidence I feel more relaxed about my whole life situation and that’s it’s ok to rest.
I’m not one for sitting still for long so over the festive break I decided to do some house sorting, clearing and cleaning as well as make my reading room (AKA the spare bedroom) cosier as I want to use the room more.
I bought some fairy lights that can double up as sidelights when people come to stay, I bought a bed desk and a fur blanket to snuggle under as I tend to feel the cold when I’m reading or meditating.
The week between Christmas and New year, I spent quite a lot of my days in this room, it was glorious, I read books, I journalled, I made plans for 2022 and I meditated.
When I started to clear out cupboards and draws it made me realise how much I love my house and how lucky I am to have the space I have, over the last few years I had fallen out of love with it as it felts tired and full of stuff (quite reflective of how I was feeling I guess!), I refurbished the house when I first bought it 15 years ago and have done very little to it since and it felt a major job to sort it but as I started doing some of the little DIY jobs, I realised that I just need to tackle one thing at a time. I replaced downlighter bulbs some of which I think have been out for probably a decade and the house feels so much lighter (Doh!! It’s amazing what you get used to and become blind too over time isn’t it!!) and I had this really strong feeling that I need to clear old energies out the house and start to look forward to the future that re-visiting the past.
The last couple of years have been hard for everyone in so many different ways and I felt that December 2021 gave me time to reflect on my own journey, the lessons I’ve learned and what I can leave in 2021 and what I can take into 2022.
I’m so excited for 2022 and all the things I will achieve… Eyes forward, one step at a time!