March has been quite a tough month for me emotionally, the first half of the month I was feeling pretty lonely, not really sure what caused this but tears flowed most days! I’m always so happy for friends when they share the good news about their lives be these engagements, pregnancies and birth announcements but it is tinged with sadness for me as I wonder if any of this will happen to me. Admittedly, I don’t do much to help myself in terms of looking for love as I’m still don’t feel in a place where I’m ready and mentally strong enough to go on the dating apps & see if I can find someone to share my life with.
At the moment I don’t feel great about the way I look as shallow as that sounds and feel that I don’t want to be judged just for how I look as is the case with dating apps. I shared how I was feeling with some very good friends and they were so kind in their response but ultimately it’s me who has to love myself and see my own beauty to feel it and live it.
I also injured my right knee mid-month, god knows how I did it, just one day woke up with severe pain and was unable to straighten my leg without shooting pains in my knee, eventually, I listened to my body and rested from Crossfit and any high impact exercise. Thankfully, I was still able to go swimming at the lake without being in pain and hoping that the cold water may help with the inflammation. I managed to see my physio at the end of the month who reassured me that they thought I’d not done anything too serious and probably just pulled my ACL.
This is frustrating when I’ve only just got my mojo back for exercise but I guess it’s one of those things and I just have to see past the temporary and know that if I rest up (as best I can when I still need to live, run a house and work) it will get better.
This month I had a herbal medicine consultation with the very knowledgeable Hannah who runs The District Herbalist as I wanted a second opinion about what’s going on with my health and wellbeing, she gave me the space and time to talk about what’s been going on for me and gave me some answers, again reassured me nothing serious is going on, made me a restorative tincture to take for a month to see if it will help with my symptoms.
So here’s to a better April, onwards and upwards as they say!!