Monday 27th June 2022

Today has been a bit of a mixed bag! I was up early doors to the work I’m still behind on!! Am hoping this week I will be all caught up with it.

Then headed to the uni today to continue with planning for the next academic year.

While there I got an email from one of my clients about a small error I made with a calculation, this has really got to me as I do my utmost to make sure all the work I do is as accurate as possible, over the last few weeks I’ve made some other small errors which in the grand scheme of things were caught before the work went live either online or in print so was not really a biggy but I’m so annoyed with myself for letting my standards slip.

This happens periodically when I know that I’m juggling too many things and my concentration slips to allow these errors to get through my double-checking process! This is a sign that I need to stop & take stock of what I’m doing so that no more errors happen, this is easier said than done for me as I hustle most of the time out of necessity rather than want but something gotta give.

Today I’ve booked a session with my therapist, I haven’t had a session since Feb 2020 which for me is absolutely amazing (shows me how far I’ve come) as usually, I have a session every 12 weeks to keep me balanced & on top of my mind gremlins.

I’m also stressing about my parents coming this week, I know I should be grateful that they are coming but I could really do without it if I’m honest. It’s just another thing to think about on top of everything else that’s going on right now…

Sunday 26th June 2022

Today has been wall-to-wall work! Haven’t had a Sunday like this for a while but I’m so behind with my nutrition work as I’ve just moved to a new piece of software & I’m having to add lots of data to it before I can do my actual work!

I am hoping that the company I bought the software from will allow me to bulk upload the data as I’ve got over 700 ingredients that need adding, yes I can do them as they appear in recipes which is what I usually do but at the moment at least 4 or 5 need adding for every recipe I do!

Apart from this work I did manage to squeeze in a swim at the lake, my body (well mainly legs) are aching from the workouts I’ve done this week so the swim was simply for recovery, didn’t push it too hard and just swimble around the small loop a few times.The water is now a really pleasant 22°C and with blue skies overhead, there isn’t aware else in the world I love more.

I’ve had to cancel my gym session in the morning as work takes priority right now, bit gutted about this seeing as not only have I got my mojo for exercise back but also my knee seems to be holding out well as well, I don’t have much choice really as the work pays the bills and the buck stops with me!

Time for bed, got another busy week this week with work & the business and also preparing for my parent’s arrival too!!

Saturday 25th June 2022

A strange kind of day today!

Went to intervals and came straight home, as it’s near the end of the month I decided I needed a no-spend weekend so I didn’t do my usual food shop this morning, there wasn’t anything that I desperately need so just eating up things I have in my fridge etc, I’ve got plenty to keep me going.

My body is aching from working out this week, I like this ache as it makes me realise that my body is changing and getting stronger however, I’m not used to it so it’s quite painful at times.

Being home earlier than usual felt strange as the morning dragged on a bit…

I did a few bits of housework and had planned to mow the lawn I just couldn’t muster the energy to do it!! My parents are arriving this week so I will probably do it before they come to stop me from getting grief from my mum for not doing it!!

Managed to prep some food for the week ahead and get my bags ready for swimming tomorrow and work on Monday as it will be a gym straight to uni day so have been semi-productive.

My bed is calling as is Sophiecat wanting her nighttime dreamies!!

Friday 24th June 2022

Another day, another dollar as they say and today was quite similar to yesterday really just without the swimming after work!!

Sophiecat woke me at 4.07am, I now just get up and feed her half asleep and go back to the bed as quickly as possible until my alarm at 5.11am.

I got up, got my stuff ready for work and headed to the gym, today’s workouts had movements that I didn’t feel like doing so sacked off some bits and just did my own thing, at the moment as long as I’m moving I’m not that bothered what I do.

Once at the uni, I showered and got ready for the day.

Like yesterday I was assessing presentations with a colleague, it was a long old day! Again they were all really interesting but hard to keep my concentration going but we managed it.

Home by 5.30pm and it was a freezer tea tonight as I’m shattered so my brain wasn’t up to much more.

Chilling on the sofa and now bed! A quiet weekend is planned with a bit of exercise on both days.

Thursday 23th June 2022

Wow, what a day! Out of the house at 6.20am and back home at 7.15pm.

Another gym session, this time it was intervals, again had to scale but had a good workout and it was a hot one even at 6.45am (well hot for England anyway!!).

Then it was straight to the uni to shower and get ready for the day, today a colleague and I were assessing presentations from the students talking about business strategy and how it links with financial decision making!! All were really interesting, however, it was quite intense to sit through quite a few as I really wanted to stay focused for each and every student.

The clock struck 5pm and I got in the car and drove to the lake for a swim, today has been cooler than yesterday with more cloud cover so the swim was great. I was just going to pootle about a bit knowing that I’d already had a workout this morning but once I got in the water, I was on a mission and ended up doing 1200m, one big loop (a mixture of breaststroke & front crawl) then, 2 small loops doing all front crawl without stopping!! I didn’t actually want to get out but my skin was wrinkly and my belly rumbling.

Got home, and made some food! Did the dishes as need all my lunch stuff again tomorrow for another uni day. Done a little bit of work and now I’m here writing this blog.

I am loving being active again this week, I’m still really mindful about my knee and will take care not to push too hard with it but I’m back in my happy zone!!

Can’t believe that I’m getting close to my goal of blogging every day for a year, sometimes I do wonder what I’m going to write and may sound like a broken record to some but this is my life & I kind of love it, I know it’s not full of adventure & excitement! Personally, I think it’s over-rated!

Wednesday 22nd June 2022

Made it to the gym again this morning, again I had to change & adapt the movements to ensure I wasn’t doing too much movement in my knee, still felt like I got a great workout so I don’t mind.

Got home a little later as need to drive a different way home as the road was closed for an event so I was in a bit of a rush to get out of the house.

Apart from the past 40 minutes, today has been a non-work day! A friend and I went to our county show – for those who don’t know what this is it is a big event where the farming and countryside community come together and celebrate all that is great about these areas of our county. Due to the pandemic, there hasn’t been a show since 2019 so it was much anticipated as it’s a massive event in the farming calendar. There are food stalls, craft stalls, displays and so much more!

I’m lucky enough to live quite close to the showground where it is held so I could walk there and meet my friend when they finally arrived, they were driving and got stuck in show traffic for over an hour.

It’s been another scorcher of a day with temperatures reaching 27°C! Like I said before I love this hot weather but even for me this was draining walking around in full sunshine and although I did put some suncream on I’m looking rather red this evening (hopefully this will go brown in the coming days!!) and feeling the effects of nearly 6 hours in the sun! It was a great day and caught up with loads of people I haven’t seen for years so worth it really. It is on again tomorrow but I’m at the uni covering for a colleague who is going to the show!

Think I’ll sleep well tonight despite the warm weather as done over 22,000 steps and 14km!

Tuesday 21st June 2022

Happy Summer Solstice!!

Today has been a challenge, I had set out to do some nutrition work that has been stacking up over the last few days.

However, I just couldn’t seem to focus! I felt like I just wanted the world to stop and for me to get off for a while, I felt like everything is going at 100mph and I’m just not that good at keeping up!

Not really sure what brought these feelings on but just felt like it was all too much, I know I’m my own worse enemy as I take a lot on and I do this so I don’t have to deal with the shit that’s going on in my head! If I keep myself busy then there is no time to think about all the things I want in my life that I don’t have right now.

The lovely weather hasn’t helped either, being a Leo and a fire sign I love the sunshine & hot weather so just wanted to be outside soaking up the Vitamin D!

Anyway, this evening I popped to a friend’s for a well needed chat up and heart to heart, which did make me cry (they didn’t make me cry) just said some home truths that hit hard really.

I’m also a little wired as stupidly I had an ice coffee mid afternoon from the local shop, I had walked there to see if they had any ice so I could make an iced coffee at home with decaff coffee and lactose free milk but they didn’t have any ice so instead I bought a ready made one instead which I will probably pay for doing that when I’m still awake in 2-3 hours time.

Oh well, you live and learn!!

Monday 20th June 2022

Whoop whoop, I made it back to the gym this morning!! My knee held out, I did have to scale and modify most of the movements but I’m ok with doing that as I know that I need to basically start again with my fitness after this long-ish (for me) break! Just moving my body felt good.

I’ve been in a good mood all day because of the exercise I did this morning, I’d actually forgotten how good exercise makes me feel and why I love it so much and how much I’ve missed it, some might think I’m weird but exercise has been part of my daily routine for over 3 decades and not doing it has taken it’s toll on me mentally, I hadn’t realised that until today when I feel so much brighter in myself.

I just have to remind myself to take it steady now so I don’t go balls out and fuck up my knee again!

I’ve been at the uni today and we had another team meeting to continue discussions about next academic year which was interesting.

Got home and as it was a beautiful evening I should have got outside and mowed the lawn, but if I’m honest I couldn’t be arsed so just watch the tellybox instead.

Now my bed is calling me…

Sunday 19th June 2022

Another early start thanks to Sophiecat, she was very persistent this morning with her demands. Finally got up about 7.30am!

I had booked myself in for a swim at 9am at the lake! I’d got my determined head on so while driving I decided that I was going to do a big loop! This is a 800m loop, I can do this loop but often my mind goblins have other ideas and I end up doing multiple loops of the smaller 200m loop.

And I did it, swam 90% of it doing front crawl, once I did a big loop, I did a little one too so that I did a full 1km swim. Once done I didn’t really want to get out of the water, it was just so lovely. I sat in the sun for a bit watching others enjoying the water before I headed home.

I felt like I was on one today when I got home so cracked on with some food prep for the week and housework so a quite productive day all in all.

My knee is feeling a lot better so am heading back to the gym in the morning, I am a bit apprehensive about going as even though my knee is getting better it’s still not right so will go back to the doctors to see if I can get it scanned to see what’s going on.

Another busy week ahead so glad that I’ve done some prep today to make my life easier for the first few days next week.

Saturday 18th June 2022

I turned my alarm off last night and decided I was going to lie in this morning after the busy week, unfortunately, Sophiecat had other ideas and woke me at 3.37am for food! I put her off until 3.54am when I gave in, however, I did manage to get back to sleep for a bit and she woke me again just after 6am and then at 8.18am and she wanted this time was some cat treats and then went back to sleep!!

By this time I was wide awake so slowly got up and headed to the shops for a food shop, I’ve not done a big shop in a couple of weeks so it took a while to do but as I didn’t have any other plans for today I was in no rush.

Today, I’ve watched two films (Mulan & Nice Guy), this is highly unusual for me as I usually can’t sit through one film let alone two but my head just told me that I needed to just escape into another world which is what I’ve done, didn’t watch them both straight through, a few stops for food and refreshments & to watch the news but that’s the best I can do, loved both of them in different ways, think I’ll watch Mulan again at some point.

I also painted my nails as well, who am I!! Not done that in god knows how long as usually I can’t sit for long enough to allow them to dry properly but today I did!

My whirring head is still going but for a few hours today I got some respite from all the thoughts of things I need to do etc which has been excellent but know that tomorrow I’ll be doing a full day’s work, it feels neverending although I am very thankful that I have work coming in thick and fast…

Anyway, it’s bedtime now and I can’t wait to snuggle down in my quilt & sleep.