At the start of the month, the feeling of optimism was slowly rising within me, having asked for help a few people got in touch to offer me support.
Nothing really had changed apart from my view of my situation and how I would get through it.
The car situation had been sorted which was a massive weight off my mind and meant that I could start to do more of the things I love. My weekly trips to the lake for a swim on a Sunday resumed and I even went to another venue for a swim which was cold but exhilarating. However, this was short-lived!!
During the month I had the pleasure of judging at The British Pie Awards which is always a fun thing to do, not only do you get to eat lots of delicious pies but also it is a great networking event catching up with old contacts and meeting new people too.
Then…. as I was feeling more able to deal with the challenges I was facing and finding ways to move forward, the world around me/us changed forever.
I tend to try and watch one of the main news programmes every day as I like to know what’s going on and as this pandemic reached our shores my mind and thoughts went into overdrive as I am sure other people’s did too.
The company I was working for we were having daily discussions about the impact of this deadly disease on the business and as they supply the hospitality sector it soon became clear that they would have to totally scale back the business to ride out this storm, which included letting me go.
As the reality of the situation hit home my thoughts turned to friends and family. I live on my own, work for myself and enjoy my own company so I knew the “lockdown” itself wouldn’t cause me too much stress, I’m privileged to have a garden (albeit a very overgrown one), food in my fridge/cupboards and more unread books than I’ll ever need. My Crossfit box kindly loaned out all the equipment to the members while it is closed and I bagged myself a rower (my favourite piece of kit) and I already had some dumbbells so that was the exercise sorted. However, I knew others wouldn’t be so comfortable with this enforced action so I made a plan to help them.
One of the things that would get me through this was cooking not only for myself but also the ability to share my love and knowledge with others through my social media channels, the feedback for this has been great and given me a connection with the outside world.The main thing that sent me spiralling was the financial side of things as like many others this would be the trickiest thing to navigate and so I tuned into the daily news press conferences to find out how I might be supported. I’ve taken some action to help this by asking for payment holidays etc and presently I continuing to figure out a way through this.
The end of the month was a real rollercoaster with my emotions being all over the place, there has been tears, panic and a scared sense of the unknown.
However, there has bee a sense of calm too! I have been touched by the love I’ve been shown with many people checking in on me to make sure I am ok.