This month the business has got crazy busy which I’m ecstatic about as have felt for a long time that it might be time for a complete change, my belly fire is still burning bright but my head was saying something different these feelings were heightened this month too because Firecracker celebrated being 10 years old too, a decade of self-employment!!
In the last 10 years so much has happened and there have been some massive highs and some heartbreaking lows, and although I did celebrate this achievement it was tinged with sadness too.
I know deep down over the past ten years I’ve given my heart and soul to Firecracker, will continue to do so and smile at all the people I’ve met along the way, especially the ones I’ve been able to help and support in their life journey/story. I really hope that they smile too when they remember the interactions we had.
I had/have big dreams for Firecracker and felt that I should be further down the line with these goals than I am after ten years of plugging away at it! While the belly fire burns bright these dreams are still alive so I know not to give up hope and my time will come soon enough…
I had planned to have a quieter month in August, as mentioned in my July post I felt like I needed to rest and had some annual leave from my Uni work (having paid holiday is still something I am getting used to!) So yes I had annual leave from the Uni but I didn’t get any time off as I was busy working on Firecracker stuff, in fact, if I hadn’t had the time off I don’t think I’d have delivered all the work I need to do in August and I didn’t get as much done as I would like have liked due to…
…getting ill, I had a cold for about a week (this could have been due to being run down, or just picking it up from somewhere) – don’t think anyone likes getting ill, however, I always kind of give thanks to my body when I get ill and subsequently get better at its awesome ability to heal itself and know that my immune system is in good working order! But it was a timely reminder to look after my body and health. Personally, I believe there is nothing wrong with getting ill every so often as it’s being human, but I do think we need to do all that we can to support the body and mind to be healthy most of the time.
My big life transformation is still happening although due to the above it has kind of stalled a bit. But I’m determined more than ever to make this happen.
I did make progress on the garden though with a little help from some friends – so that’s progress towards the transformation.
While I was ill I did have a couple of slow days when my brain was a fog and tears flowed so had time to think about my life, there are times when I just want to run away and be done with adulting and all the responsibilities that go with it but mostly I smile about the life I have, the friends around me and the opportunities that come my way! Recently I’ve forgotten that…
Life’s for living and food is for eating… need to start living a bit more!!
Until next time stay safe and well xx